something I wrote in 2011

God  

you remember me , of course you do cause I be needing you every  hour , remember how I was the soft little girl that never stood up for myself and cried my eyes like melted ice 

 God I am  a nice person that see good in every person although some I have met has truly been people who have illed themselves in the head but I cant fought them for that - that what goes through their head , to not take heed to someone  who actually cares enough to say the real that goes on in my head 

God take the burden of others off my head ,its to heavy , I can't  weigh the trouble of others, if they feel a ill way about me let them God build up the courage to tell me rather than others 

God I know me and you most definately know  me

yup I was the one that rejected  people  at my own selfish times wanting people to only see me and my mind 

but Help me Lord not get offended so easily or offend others in the ways I speak 

Lord let me not loose the assignment of me being my husband help meat because of small . miscommunicated immature beef

I am not ready for that 

not sure if the pepco,geico,or the car note is either

I try Lord 

but I failed 

I am tired of failing 

over and over again 

you send me the same type of person to be in my life 

to help me with my ways and for me to help them with thine 

but it ain't playing out the way I see in my dreams 

just a simple real talk of discussion, no cussin , just yea - I feel ya-ya feel 

daps, and heads up - now lets keep it moving 

day by day and show others this how you squash the beef and build true relationship whether it be with your mate, you friend, classmate or those we work with 

God is Love is a three word statement but it tells a huge story with in itself 

God is the Auther of this life , the authur of my salvation 

you  know my strenghts , you know what I can bear and you  know what I am suppose to see

help me God gain the strength that is for me 

and I thank you Lord for the strength you gave me in those 3 pregnancies 

cause  JEEEEEEEEEESsssus , you saved me

Lord Forgive those I hurt, show them my intentions of speaking to them is to not hurt 

show those who view me, my post my notes that I am being real as I come, and I am putting each statement I make into practice and living it out , once upon a time I was fake but now its different - I am ready to share my faith story because to you oh GOd BE THE GLory  

Guard my heart 

help me to never Give up 

help me to always stand on solid ground which is your word 

and not sinking sand 

Love you Lord 

your Child who need your arms to  wrap around me 

Cristella 

" We will hit your WHOLE BLOCK UP with prayer " ....Prayer Fighters For Christ

Galations 5 : 19 -21 
Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God. 


If you really Saved - the Fruits will show 
How Do I know ? Cause I lived it , My husband and I both been through it ....
We both Had to Seek God and Turn away from things not apart of His will -even after marriage -
We had to have God Clean our hearts and come To Truth
This Above scripture aint Easy but It is WORTH the good Fight of Faith through Prayer Always

Date written   May  14th

reflection on my Story

1 Corinthians 15:54-57
Then, when our dying bodies have been transformed into bodies that will never die, this Scripture will be fulfilled:
“Death is swallowed up in victory.
O death, where is your victory?
O death, where is your sting?”
For sin is the sting that results in death, and the law gives sin its power. But thank God! He gives us victory over sin and death through our Lord Jesus Christ.
  reflecting on my life before today, the mindset of following Christ for real and not just being a church member and living my life as it  is, I remember in 2007 when my young sister passed at  18 - her death was not expected, she was hospitalized before her 18th birthday and was diagnosed with Leukemia ,she passed to soon, a month later , I was planning in my head how I was going to care for her through this sickness , not expecting death to come upon her ,no one wants anyone to leave this earth - after that I remember still living my life a little numb still doing as I please and not having a devoted  full life with Jesus  - I knew that I wanted to study God's word more , I knew I needed to change my life and not waste my life , well I remember meeting some people near the  end of 2008 who were always doing these in depth bibles studies - I was reading a book that I picked up from the store -I found that they taught the Truth - I just did not care for the rules of being clocked when you did not come to the meetings/fellowships or was late , or the mindset that all churches are of the world and will not make it to heaven unless the come to this organization- sounded familiar to my childhood -upbringing of church. I noticed that people who go to church and suffer through that church abuse -it makes it harder for  true spiritual growth in Faith - The Word of God says  Study to Show Self approve-my Faith keeps growing with the believers that I have met over the past five years and believers I knew since I was younger but most importantly  when I spend my time with God alone in prayer and devotionals. I understand the meaning of being saved and living Holy better than someone telling me "this is what you going to do" nothing happens overnight-
  I am unashamed firm believer of following the Word of God  and know all of it is True. My Life before Christ - I believed that I would be ok having sex with  just one person and not being married. I wanted marriage so bad when I began my relationship that  I had thoughts of becoming unfaithful and did exactly that. Not knowing that I was unfaithful first to  Christ from the very beginning of sleeping with the one person -regardless - many people have this mindset that fornication is for people who have multiple partners - no that is the wrong mindset because fornication is for anyone who is not married and who is unfaithful to God.Sin is sin and can be justified by people. It is easy for people to say " do not judge ,we all sin " I used to say it and believe it but the word of God says  Romans  3:20  For by works of the law no human being will be justified in his sight, since through the law comes knowledge of sin
If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us- 1 John 1:8

The Light

  Take  a stand  for Christ not for whoever is in the limelight for they are just  human mankind taking away from what is right in the living for a purpose that Christ is the Truth and the Light
 If I am lying than  I must be flying
 that is why I stay eating my daily breading ,praying and stead-fasting in His word  
Its the Truth of the mirror  that reveals the sinner ,
It explains  that God loved me first  
His commandments aren't easy  because one  He wants us to love our enemies  
what does it profit  us to only love our friends  
The one's that can care  less of any type of christian testimony or God's Glory  
 people to busy  talking about celebrities  of today's life  as if they gonna be the ones that will be next to God's  Son  holding the gates up for them 
Now are you with me ? 
 to lift your eyes  up to the Holy Son  for He is the only  one that woke you up , so even if you lost today because you failed to display  Christ's Love  
if you are  on the side of Christ , that means you in His army ,the army that is known as the church 
regardless if you see a lot of phonies  , there are a lot of real ones out there and I guess its  fair ,safe to say   the phonies just have a lot of hurt and haven't noticed that they can be healed from it 
They know the  religious cliches and all of the  pharisees  ways like condemning folks as if they are God but that is not what it is about  
and  the main assignment is w hat He wants from us as a church is to Love 
 The Greatest command , His will ,and the top of the Plan , the law of kindness and not to be a fool and be used to live our lives with truth ,pushing a booklet tract or passing a long a gospel/christian soundtrack ain't always where  it is  at  in showing that the  King saved you and me but  witnessing  is more about your  day to day  living .



   - Cristella 

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Safe Friend , what does it look like ?

A Safe Friend do not hurt people, 
if something has been  confided , like a secret of the heart , even if you hear some secret about someone else that  come from another mouth , 
the game of gossip is being played 
but you know you saved fired baptized and
 you doing the opposite thing of what Christ wants for us 
in helping others see that He reigns .
instead they turn away from God saying people who go to church are the same as those out of the church 
..two faced- double mindedness- lukewarm ,not hot or cold, or on the fence
 afraid to claim being Unashamed 
living like  the Love Christ rise and shines through darkness daily and fighting with the best weapons ever 
 prayer, 
fasting and 
God word

Why God ? can be changed to another Question - Read my blog

I am so in agreement with those who have lost people when they ask God "why did you take them ? My lesson learned it is this , it is not " Why God ? It is God "What is it that you want me to learn from this journey of this life ?" - 
I am a firm believer that EARTH Is not my home and we make choices daily to live free in him or bonded with chains of debts, un- forgiveness , hatred ,greed, self gratification and etc. 
I just know I miss those that I lose from earth but for some reason I am actually Jealous of them because they are in the hands of King Jesus ...I am not giving up on this faith because one day I too will pass away from earth and I want to be in the arms of Jesus