Thursday, April 7, 2011

have you ever

 Oh my God
so I was having a conversation today with someone and the person said Cristella, you don't let people talk or get a word when in when someone is a disagreement with you. You don't realize that you may hurt people feelings and that one situation a few months ago, you spoke so badly the person was in tears, I was shook, and I was blown because that is not at all how I want to come off to people
I want to be that quick listener and great educated - street smart speaker that can speak with sense and sensibility and sensitivity.
 I have been a jerk in situations where I felt like I have never spoken up for myself and I admit I might of hurt some feelings . But my intentions and my heart was really not to do so. People alway say some things are better left unsaid than said. And I wonder why? because I missed out on a pass of letting someone have in when I was a child or while in middle to high school.
I do get offended when someone plays tattle tale to get someone fired or written up. When someone plays " follows the rules" or if you don't I will  tell on you and make sure I cover myself and not care about you loosing you hard earned income.
 God made me to Love like he does for me, sometimes it seems so hard because people can be mean, and when I say people I must confess mean is me. Being mean is nice and it can come from a numerous of things

I apologize to everyone who can even think or remember being a non listening asshole who does not deserve a friendship that is as genuine
My mouth needs some work
I am praying to gain strength so that I dont a hurt another human being especially beginning at home with my  husband and kids....its a process...never said I am perfect...just want to say the right things, treat others with respect and be right