Friday, December 2, 2011

don't talk about it - just be out of it

If you want to get over a problem, stop talking about it. Your mind affects your mouth, and your mouth affects your mind. It’s difficult to stop talking about a situation until you stop thinking about it.  ~ Joyce Meyer 




    

Beth Moore "We've Got Some Issues"

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Lost Documents of Goss {Edition 1}

look into my Natural journey




 This is my one year Journey video- I will post another soon because that is what I love to do -I feel so excited about  this hair journey - I have not given up and went back on the "creamy crack"-aka Relaxer. :) 

i did the Zipline

Willie Lynch Discussion

styled daughters hair again (copycat style with my own twist or flavor



    then  i just  took a pic of my  big ol FRO




 loving natural curly  me
thats all folks  

Mynista a.k.a. Docta Wuzdead - (My brother from the same Father )





The LYRICS  Are for God's Kingdom and glory !!!!!!  


Mynista a.k.a. Docta Wuzdead 
DEVOTED (ft. Cory Edwards) 
http://www.mynistamusic.com 

(Chorus) 

Here I am (I offer myself up as a living sacrifice) 
Consecrated (I die again, even though I have been born twice) 
Dying everyday (I die again) That I may truly live (He lives within) 
Devoted (I'm devoted God's will be done, I die to self so they can see your Son) 

(Verse 1) 

I fly my flag at half staff, today I die again, 
can't let my flesh hold me down, I spear Leviathan. 
Can't let these other folks interpret God's call on me, 
If it was glitter, you would see His oil all on me. 
Misunderstood a lot, He told me son, you gotta' suffer, 
fly with the eagles don't you peck around with them "cluckers." 
So I packed it up and tied my stuff up on a stick, 
Hung it over my shoulder, and let my journey commence... 
One foot in front of the other, beside my sisters and brothers, 
all of us come from the gutter, we were all in sin. 
No one was innocent, a sacrificial Lamb was sent, 
It was never in the plan of God to damn us men. 
It was more like the homie Romeo's banishment, 
but He loved us so much He sent His Lamb in. 
And He aint dead either, Jesus alive! 
I die to self... 

(Chorus) 

(Verse 2) 

If this song don't get no radio play I don't care, 
If they don't like the way I praise, then "oh well." 
'Cause I aint making music for no trophies or no fame, 
I shall not bypass my heart to get into their game. 
I got your call on me, I recognize grace, 
strengthen my inner man, I'm running my race. 
And when I'm feeling faint, I aint going back, 
I'm gonna wait upon you 'til I get my "strong back." 
Sometimes I wish I could eject up out a fiery trial, 
but I know you're with me, you will not forsake your child. 
So when I'm persecuted, my flesh I'm gonna' mute it, 
I'm rooted in the love of Jesus and I'm gonna use it. 
Offense I will excuse it, I'm praying for my brother, 
even though we aint really felling each other. 
So here I am again, what can I do for You, 
who can I love?... 

(Chorus) 

(Verse 3) 

I tie myself up on the altar of your will God, 
brand me with your fired up seal God. 
Anoint me with your power, equip me for your service, 
use me according to your pre-planned purpose. 
I'm your worker, I'm your slave, put your chains on me, 
I don't want no civilian clothes to remain on me. 
I got your manual, I got Emmanuel, 
illuminate my understanding to see very well. 
I know the gates of Hell will never prevail against me, 
'cause I'm in the Church, so I'm fenced (yeah). 
'Umma do my part, and get my mind straight, 
meditate upon your Word with my eye gate. 
I'm listenin, I'm looking for ya', yeah I'm seeking You, 
A living sacrifice, a sweet aroma pleasing You. 
I only live once, that's why I gotta die, 
no longer "I."... 

(Chorus Out) 

Not a Perfect soul on this earth

 I have been redeemed
 yeah I made mistakes
when I think it may have been to many
for the most the mistakes of the mouth
Hurtful words has come out to someone who did not deserve to hear the words
I tell my heavenly father I am sorry and ask Him for his help daily
this is how I want to be Daddy
 Help me keep the words of kindness upon my mouth
no matter  how someone roll their eyes at me
or may have said  a smart mouth remark to me
I am growing
yeah I am grown
and I know I am 29 but that does not mean immaturity of my growing can't hit my mind
When I am 30 I will only see that I made a whole decade of my life but there is still more time left
I want to grow old with a smile of kindness and generosity but that doesn't mean I want to be someone who gets used , talked about , abused and stepped on
I know this wish is possible because my God said in his Word that the impossible can be made possible
so with all the troubled thoughts that cross my mind of how someone can be mean and green towards me, I always know to hold on and to carry the Light Of Love and know who  Loves me and that is a much better thought to help me get through
 I love you Lord , you help me write for your purpose and not to hurt another human's feeling just cause my heart is easily broken
   and I am not sure if I should write more but I will leave it here for now

My favorite pic of my daughter and I at the beautiful place (Great Falls, Va) the Journey of hiking is hard and rough- sometimes you can get lost on a path if you loose track of directions but the scenery of God always brings you back to reality that there is a purpose  and God always completes that 

Celebrate Someone!


Nothing is more important than words. In fact, my favorite invention on earth is the alphabet. Where would we be without it? Don't hesitate to say words that build up and strengthen someone. Applaud others with kind words. And put them in writing to be kept and cherished.
If you want to make someone happy, figure out how to say thank you in a fresh, loving way.
  • Send a card.
  • Write a warm, tender e-mail.
  • Communicate the good news instead of the bad.
  • Mail a postcard or a letter.
  • Send someone you love a detailed description of everything going on in the neighborhood.
  • Tell someone what you love and miss about them.
  That is so cool. I often wonder how will I turn out when I become older, I am  29 years old and love to encourage people. Sometimes opportunities slip  away. 
  Last week I sent an friendly email but I received no responses, I wonder is that the way some people say "  Leave me alone" 
 If I don't respond, that means "tough cookie, I don't care about you, your life,encouraging words, I don't even want you to purchase a gift for me. I am no longer your friend, although I made the mistake of accepting you as a friend on Facebook but you are on there with a whole lot of other random folks I care nothing about. " 
  The above I written are just thoughts that I wonder of what might  be on people's mind when they reject a text message, an email , an phone call.   "you are not important to me so I don't have to explain anything to you" 
  Maybe this  is how my  unknown earthly father feels " aww the baby girl who I nicknamed Cricket is not important to me but I hope she is having a good life and is not looking for me" 
Since  these are my thoughts when  cluttered with of what people may think of me then I know I need to not stay there but rise and keep moving forward because I know God places me right where he wants me and places awesome and great people around me who does love me and don't mind the sharing stories of my life via the web of Facebook,twitter or e-mail. 
There are folks who say  " Hey call me, text me its OK, like to hear from you to know how you are doing in life " 
and with  folks like that how can I not return unto them the same generosity and kindness and that is just how life goes on. 
  

    Just Love to Love - it really does feels good when someone loves you back ~  Stella's Mindset 
     on the Journey of staying positive daily 

Searching for Birth Dad

  Why  do I want to know him ? When I don't need anything now, I am grown married wife and mother of three delightful children.
   you know  a  real father and daughter relationship with the man who had also never knew or planned for  me but had a part in bringing me in this  world.

 I am not sitting here giving credit to the man (Richard J Woodward )  because I am a firm believer in the man upstairs , some know Him as God, but I call him daddy daily (Jesus)
Facts that I know
 He was in the  U.S. Army and he once lived in Fort Bragg NC - still could be there or in the surrounding area.
( heard he was a married man, so I am assuming he had a family with children
  I often wonder if he ever remembers that he had me and if  he would like to meet me  and see how I turned out in  this life.
Well my best feature is my  smile. If he ever reads this blog or perhaps his family members. I hope they let him know
          Father Known Name:  Richard Joseph Woodard Sr
          Last Known Employment: US Army
        Since I was born in  1982 - that is probably the area he could of remained but not sure of his hometown and where he is from