something I wrote in 2011

God  

you remember me , of course you do cause I be needing you every  hour , remember how I was the soft little girl that never stood up for myself and cried my eyes like melted ice 

 God I am  a nice person that see good in every person although some I have met has truly been people who have illed themselves in the head but I cant fought them for that - that what goes through their head , to not take heed to someone  who actually cares enough to say the real that goes on in my head 

God take the burden of others off my head ,its to heavy , I can't  weigh the trouble of others, if they feel a ill way about me let them God build up the courage to tell me rather than others 

God I know me and you most definately know  me

yup I was the one that rejected  people  at my own selfish times wanting people to only see me and my mind 

but Help me Lord not get offended so easily or offend others in the ways I speak 

Lord let me not loose the assignment of me being my husband help meat because of small . miscommunicated immature beef

I am not ready for that 

not sure if the pepco,geico,or the car note is either

I try Lord 

but I failed 

I am tired of failing 

over and over again 

you send me the same type of person to be in my life 

to help me with my ways and for me to help them with thine 

but it ain't playing out the way I see in my dreams 

just a simple real talk of discussion, no cussin , just yea - I feel ya-ya feel 

daps, and heads up - now lets keep it moving 

day by day and show others this how you squash the beef and build true relationship whether it be with your mate, you friend, classmate or those we work with 

God is Love is a three word statement but it tells a huge story with in itself 

God is the Auther of this life , the authur of my salvation 

you  know my strenghts , you know what I can bear and you  know what I am suppose to see

help me God gain the strength that is for me 

and I thank you Lord for the strength you gave me in those 3 pregnancies 

cause  JEEEEEEEEEESsssus , you saved me

Lord Forgive those I hurt, show them my intentions of speaking to them is to not hurt 

show those who view me, my post my notes that I am being real as I come, and I am putting each statement I make into practice and living it out , once upon a time I was fake but now its different - I am ready to share my faith story because to you oh GOd BE THE GLory  

Guard my heart 

help me to never Give up 

help me to always stand on solid ground which is your word 

and not sinking sand 

Love you Lord 

your Child who need your arms to  wrap around me 

Cristella